My daughter, Kara, started rhythmic
gymnastics when she was 6. Late in that
year, she did her first competition.
I’ve been thinking a lot about her focus and determination that dayJ There she sat, a small little girlie in blue,
surrounded by a host of strangers. She
needed me next to her, but she didn’t need me to talk to her. She sat taking it all in. I’d see her eye’s roaming the room, focusing
on the coach in front of the carpet… squaring her shoulders. I leaned over and said, ‘You don’t have to do
this if you don’t want to lovie…’. Her
name was called… Up she got. Head up.
Gaze focused. And, she did her
ribbon movements beautifully. She finished… came back and sat down. No fuss.
She’d done it. She was satisfied. And, we went back home again.
Kari doing her very first gym competition 2008 age almost 7 |
Hebrews
12:1b ….let us throw off everything that
hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance
the race marked out for us,
I’m so thankful to the Lord for Kari’s
example to me as I approach this 2nd course of cancer
treatment. The road is marked out before
me. I need to choose to travel it. I could choose to give up before I start. I could choose to shout and scream at its
unfairness. But, the Lord has so gently
reminded me to be obedient this past week.
He has reminded me of His great love for me. He has reminded me of the sufferings of many
around me and those that have gone before.
He has reminded me that He is in control. He has reminded me that I can trust Him.
Like Kari, I need to focus on the path
ahead of me. Gather my strength (which
He also promises to give). Give thanx
for the huge support network He has around me (how priveledged I am as soooooo
many do not have that). I need to
straighten my shoulders… lift my head without shame or uncertainty (because He
loves me)… and walk the path laid out before me as best I can… with His
strength and holding His banner high.
The path will end, as Kari’s music did
that day. I will grow in ways I cannot
know now. I will experience Jesus in
ways I cannot now anticipate. I will
meet people along the way… who will help me and who I will be priveledged to
help. Pray with me, that when I reach
fork in the road of this particular part of the journey… that I will experience the warmth of His
smile of pride … that I did my best… that I allowed Him to show Himself real
and true. May my life bring Him
glory.
Cancer does not define who I am. But, it is one of the things that determines
a path on my road of life. Cancer is not
the whole journey. It is part of
it. My journey is in the hands of my
Savior. Tho hard, I can rest in His
hands, as I travel.
Thank you fo much for your prayers.